tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-211950752011-09-09T04:07:35.843+08:00coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.comBlogger571100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-15982349678176805452010-12-12T14:31:00.003+08:002010-12-12T14:39:07.100+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_WN1tCcSd1nU/TQRt1GLKlBI/AAAAAAAAAA4/gdCXtqiIa0g/s1600/chakra%252C%2Bheart.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 120px; height: 120px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_WN1tCcSd1nU/TQRt1GLKlBI/AAAAAAAAAA4/gdCXtqiIa0g/s200/chakra%252C%2Bheart.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5549681399785231378" /></a><br />yes its been long since i wrote here...<div><br /></div><div>life has been strange</div><div><br /></div><div>3D life is so confusing... </div><div><br /></div><div>many times people say what they say but they mean not it</div><div>i feel often the real intention but they deny it</div><div><br /></div><div>when this first happened i used to doubt myself and my intuition</div><div>but now i know the 3D world can be very misinformed</div><div><br /></div><div>why when you are trying to be understanding</div><div>people just think you are stupid and make use of you</div><div><br /></div><div>well its time i let my inner self out and see the world as it is!</div><div><br /></div><div>satnam!</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-1598234967817680545?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-84024263505552589562009-07-11T07:38:00.001+08:002009-07-11T07:38:58.073+08:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; color: rgb(209, 222, 241); line-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000099;">i live by the pulse<br />powered by the will<br />pushing through time<br />into timelessness<br /><br />with each beating<br />i move<br />with each pulse<br />i feel<br /><br />connecting with each soul on their journey home (within)</span><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-8402426350555258956?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-76426832757041524672009-05-21T08:01:00.002+08:002009-05-21T08:04:51.362+08:00good timing bad timing<div>good food bad food</div><div>good health bad health</div><div><br /></div><div>the timing has come when the timing is gone</div><div><br /></div><div>all is here while all is there</div><div><br /></div><div>being real to yourself</div><div>brings out the truth in others</div><div><br /></div><div>see yourself and you see others </div><div><br /></div><div>the time has come to reveal yourself</div><div><br /></div><div>come forth </div><div>burst forth </div><div><br /></div><div>emerge as the phoenix has always done </div><div><br /></div><div>fire burning</div><div>fire killing</div><div>fire giving birth to the new me... </div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-7642683275704152467?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-64877887868616565292007-11-22T01:49:00.000+08:002007-11-22T01:56:13.480+08:00why god?<br />why do you always give me something so good and then take it away from me?<br />do i not deserve goodness or do you not want me to see how the goodness would turn bad and i be even more disappointed?<br />i question myself<br />maybe i dun deserve it<br />maybe they shouldnt have been presented to me at all<br />is the the hard way for me to learn detachment?<br />if attachment is such a suffering<br />why make me feel?<br />why give them to me and take them away from me?<br />will there be one you ll allow me to keep and blossom with?<br />maybe someday i will prove myself worthy of the one<br />maybe someday you will answer me why...<br />but with faith and trust i believe all you do is good<br />and all is yet to come and yet to go<br />all is already here<br />and all is gone...<br />is that why, god?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-6487788786861656529?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-43932871519624106622007-10-30T02:41:00.000+08:002007-10-30T02:47:54.990+08:00many times when i have followed others<br />when i have watched others<br />but what do i want<br />i am confused<br />what do i want i am misleaded<br /><br />god greatness of the universe do guide me and show me wisdom with the purest of hearts<br />so that i may find truth and not be distracted and guided by ego and physical pleasures<br /><br />so many times i looked and succumbed to the the flesh and listen to the bodily needs...<br /><br />why is beauty and innocence so easily overlooked and taken advantage of?<br /><br />why is sincerity and truthfuless so often abused?<br /><br />the wickness of the heart is but the misleded<br />of greed and want<br /><br />the fear of not having<br /><br />the fear of desertment<br /><br />the fear of unforgiving...<br /><br />if we only realized that life is of abundance and practice faith and believe<br />then we would have a blissful life...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-4393287151962410662?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-20423177618288665372007-10-30T02:36:00.000+08:002007-10-30T02:41:11.142+08:00shall i be flattered or shall i be betrayed<br />for all messages comes from the one source....<br /><br />there is a copy right law but who does it govern?<br />the creator or the messenger...<br /><br />if it was the creator then why wouldnt the creator want more to share<br />and if the messenger... is that not what he wants ultimately?<br /><br />copyright is just an egoistic practice.<br /><br />a practice to have the works that came form the creator<br />to be solely his or hers....<br /><br />i know you have been copying but it doesnt matter for it shall reach to even more people then i have intended and it came not from me but the creator... right, dreamer?....<br /><br />thank you and blessings..... for the word shall go further than i have intended....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-2042317761828866537?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-31608053572345731342007-09-25T02:47:00.000+08:002007-09-25T03:01:51.665+08:00on my way back from my moms on the bike tonight<br />i had a distorted idea that life is but burdened by us wanting to be someone<br />or to achieve something...<br /><br />nothing wrong with that...<br /><br />we will get what we ask for... its just a matter of time and how they will arrive<br /><br />but things come with a reason and a price.<br /><br />are we ready to pay for the price?<br /><br />what is the reason we want it?<br /><br />then it spoke to me...<br /><br />it said,<br /><br />ask for nothing and seek nothing for you have already everything.<br /><br />let me decide and give you what is best for you... what you are most ready for now.<br /><br />but if you choose to decide i shall oblidge.<br /><br />but i will therefore not be answerable for your outcome.<br /><br />well said. point taken.<br /><br />how would i know what is best for me?<br /><br />the hidden forces are always hidden<br /><br />people always say they do not exist.<br /><br />but that is why they are called the hidden forces.<br /><br />anyway, my conclusion is therefore ask for nothing and seek nothing<br />but listen to the rythm of life<br /><br />the pulsation in me leading me<br />guiding me<br />telling me<br /><br />aspire not<br />but be inspired<br /><br />seek not<br />but be looked after<br /><br />ask not<br />but to listen<br /><br />the knowing is in you...<br /><br />TOLD YOU IT WAS RANDOM AND DISTORTED....<br /><br />but... did it make sense?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-3160805357234573134?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-80503211702209066762007-09-09T06:13:00.000+08:002007-09-09T06:28:39.355+08:00passion like fire<br />love clouded by desire<br /><br />looking through a cracked window<br />into a clouded mirror<br /><br />life seems lifeless<br />and heart beating without a beat<br /><br />waking to a life of sleeplessness<br /><br />bleeding is less painful<br />cutting through the heart with a razor blade and yet feel not pain<br /><br />have i been numbed for a good reason<br />or just too painful to register<br /><br />or simply too numb<br />too numb to hate for all is filled with love<br /><br />perhaps someday i will know the answer<br /><br />but for now as the saying goes...<br />time heals everything<br /><br />why is...<br />pain such a beautiful thing<br />and sadness filled with beauty<br /><br />loving while in pain is the ultimate test<br /><br />why such profoundness in the late night hours<br />or shall i call it the early morning<br /><br />time is a such a strange concept<br />love even more so<br />hatred exists not in the pain nor the in the heart<br />just filled with love yet love being so beautiful is also painful<br />but love is such<br /><br />shall i defend myself or shall i love<br /><br />am i lonely or am i scared<br /><br />why cant i just know the answer<br />when i am with me all the time<br /><br />clouded mirror<br />cracked windows<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-8050321170220906676?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-10339835957686062262007-06-14T23:59:00.000+08:002007-06-15T00:07:58.736+08:00manys months have passed... many journeys taken.<br />now i am back to my birth place.<br />finding what i have forgotten or put away about myself.<br /><br />the journey is hard.<br />the journey is complicated.<br /><br />from outside we go in to the within<br />and from within we shine outwards.<br /><br />my mind reflects my world and my world reflects my mind.<br /><br />why such theories are so easy to understand yet so difficult to practice?<br /><br />my journey within started in 2005<br />in a wayward direction<br />why now it seems like it is going in many more ways?<br />am i distracted? am i exploring my possibilities?<br /><br />the journey within is a parallel to the journey outwards...<br />does it then mean i am unsure of my mind? or unsure of my world?<br /><br />i pray i am moving in the desired direction.<br /><br />why is it so hard to see when there is someone else involved and so lonely when there is not?<br /><br />i journey<br />i journey<br />i journey<br />within...<br /><br />a journey within can only be journeyed alone...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-1033983595768606226?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-7715875029229399642007-05-20T02:45:00.000+08:002007-05-20T02:53:46.869+08:00blue<br />the time for actions<br />the time to do<br /><br />what can i do if i havent got red<br />the kundalini<br />the life force within<br /><br />actions seem weightless<br />the world seems light<br /><br />the fire is burning<br />but wherefore<br />what of<br /><br />i keep searching<br />and found nothing<br />but the haze<br /><br />am i too slow?<br />am i too stuborn?<br />or simply too lazy?<br /><br />too distracted perhaps<br />by the fanciful things around me<br /><br />trying to see<br />trying to hear<br />trying to learn<br /><br />but never listening to what is within<br /><br />heard but not listening<br /><br />calm the mind<br />calm the soul<br />perhaps someday<br />i will learn to feel the right thing to do<br /><br />blue blue i beseech you to move forward and red do come from within...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-771587502922939964?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-88030980477057975472007-05-08T00:35:00.000+08:002007-05-08T00:44:15.017+08:00the moon shines not of its own source<br />but reflects relentlessly the brillance of the sun<br />little did she know she is so admired for being her<br />and the sun faithfully shares her with us by hiding behind the earth<br /><br />what a relationship between him and her<br />that gives us the variety of day and night<br />and of knowing and feeling<br /><br />the moon reflects his rays<br />showing his power and displaying her beauty<br /><br />often we take advantage of their efforts<br />and forget to reflect on its purpose<br /><br />next time you see the sun<br />be gratified for he gives us life<br />and the moon<br />that she reminds us to reflect<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-8803098047705797547?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-75783821416011857382007-04-05T15:48:00.000+08:002007-04-05T15:58:28.371+08:00less and more come together<br />we realise that we learn less as we learn more<br />less in comparison to the whole<br />and the whole seems to get bigger and bigger<br />and it now seems like an endless pit<br />we keep trying to see the end<br />but realized we cant<br />we keep trying to trace the beginning<br />but we can only guess<br /><br />so what do we do?<br />to learn less or to learn more<br /><br />its not what we learn<br />its what we see<br /><br />knowledge is never ending<br />but wisdom puts an end to all things<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-7578382141601185738?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-87949665623592372822007-03-25T23:34:00.000+08:002007-03-25T23:37:31.692+08:00ok.<br /><br />reading back on my posts i realized that i have been writing about now for months now!!!<br /><br />maybe i am trying to remind myself here not to forget it.<br /><br />is there ever enough times to remind myself its enough?<br /><br />well, i hope i finally live it enough to know that enough is enough.<br /><br />blah blah blah...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-8794966562359237282?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-7826312739268888302007-03-25T23:13:00.000+08:002007-03-25T23:29:43.599+08:00this moment or that?<br />what is your most precious moment?<br /><br />we are always asked<br /><br />what is your most memorable moment?<br />what is the funniest moment in your life?<br />what is the saddest...<br />what is the happiest...<br />what is ...<br /><br />how about precious?<br />what is the most precious moment in your life?<br /><br />for me... this is. this is and this is....etc...<br /><br />i keep getting distracted by what people have, what people expect and what people want, which in turn make make me want to have, make me expect, make me want...<br /><br />my mind racing ahead of me wanting and expecting...<br />like a bondage from the material world.<br />like a bondage from the darkened mind.<br /><br />and when i got what i wanted.<br />i was not happy.<br />but wanted more!<br /><br />then i sit and contemplate.<br />i sit and listen.<br />i sit and be.<br />i. be.<br /><br />then i feel alive again.<br />for this (this...this...this...this...) precious moment have made me whole.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-782631273926888830?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-51210943391131282102007-03-25T22:56:00.000+08:002007-03-25T23:12:54.979+08:00water flowing<br />in the stream<br />down the river<br />to the sea<br /><br />from the sky<br />came the vapour<br />pouring down<br />through its sleeves<br /><br />circling of water<br />seem so deemed<br />but who decides<br />and who to please<br /><br />where fore comes it<br />where for goes<br /><br />thinking water or<br />thinking soul<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-5121094339113128210?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-44779540759303682142007-03-18T18:56:00.000+08:002007-03-18T19:06:25.382+08:00i am now sitting in a mall<br />working as an annoucer/dj for barbie loves mac<br /><br />its amazing to see these life size barbie doll models<br />and ken doll models<br /><br />it makes me think<br /><br />they are so beautiful<br /><br />it makes me feel ugly<br /><br />they are so tall<br /><br />it makes me feel short<br /><br />they are so charming<br /><br />it makes me feel unattractive<br /><br />but i can do a grand jete and they cant!<br />ha!<br /><br />why am i comparing myself to them?<br /><br />why do we always compare?<br />why do we forget to look into ourselves and see how beautiful we are too?<br /><br />we are all different<br />if there was only roses in the garden<br />how can we see the rose<br />but if we are the lawn the makes the roses stand out.. arent we just as beautiful and important?<br /><br />so next time you sit in a mall<br />look around and realize we are all made beautiful in our very own ways...<br /><br />maybe we should start looking at the contrast and not to compare...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-4477954075930368214?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-36643782355928065352007-03-18T18:46:00.000+08:002007-03-25T23:33:16.494+08:00how i come out with these titles<br />i don't know<br /><br />but feeling very encouraged when i get comments from people i dun know<br />encouraging me<br />supporting me<br />its a real blessing and encouragement<br /><br />maybe fishing came from me thinking about fishing for praises<br />fishing for encouragement<br />support<br />good wishes?<br /><br />but hey dun we just sit and fish and pray for a good catch?<br />well isnt the best part of fishing in the waiting and the chatting and the anticipation?<br /><br />enjoy the fishing dun fish for the fish, but for yourselves...<br />the fish is only a bonus!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-3664378235592806535?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-71906271188811253172007-03-03T00:55:00.000+08:002007-03-25T23:34:40.135+08:00there is no consequence<br />there is no regret<br />for now i am living the fullest i can come to in my life<br /><br />this is the consequence<br />this is the cause of regrets<br />for if i missed the now i would never get it back<br /><br />today i have experienced the greatest moments in life...<br />i gave 43 dogs a bone each to chew<br />their happiness was my reward<br /><br />for that emotion fed me for the rest of the day<br /><br />hence now drop your worries and give to a good cause<br />for that would stay with you<br /><br />live for the now and enjoy every moment of it<br /><br />now, now, now, now, now...<br />...now, now, now...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-7190627118881125317?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-50602506002139746352007-03-01T01:02:00.000+08:002007-03-01T01:10:54.480+08:00emotions running through the fingers<br />through the touch<br /><br />why do we feel with our fingers<br />yet we tell someone to feel with the heart<br /><br />the fingers types the fingers plays the fingers feel<br />yet we touch with the hearts<br /><br />isnt life an irony<br />words, irony<br /><br />how do you feel?<br />with your fingers and your heart?<br /><br />why do we contradict what we say with how we feel<br />is it to protect or to harm?<br /><br />when we protect ourselves<br />do we hurt others?<br /><br />when we hurt others<br />are we really protecting ourselves...<br /><br />feel with your heart<br />touch with your touch<br /><br />for the truth is within that cannot be touched<br /><br />running waters<br />touch<br />and feel<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-5060250600213974635?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-85835173012914811522007-02-27T00:08:00.000+08:002007-02-27T00:13:56.227+08:00doesnt it make you think why good things always come to an end?<br />doesnt it make you feel relieve that bad things have ended?<br />isnt it better just not to feel?<br />or is it better to feel everything?<br />do we wanna get hurt?<br />or do we wanna forget everything?<br />doesnt it make you think what is the best way to be?<br />to experience life to its fullest?<br />or to live it untouched?<br />doesnt it make you think why we exist?<br />doesnt it make you think why we are the way we are?<br /><br />stop. be still. feel.<br /><br />just feel...<br /><br />...let the answer come to you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-8583517301291481152?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-31836352130089702702007-02-26T23:54:00.000+08:002007-02-27T00:06:53.490+08:00the words below are from a song i treasure<br />not just because its beautiful<br />but for the person who brought me to it...<br />but sadly the words from <em>'you are beautiful'</em> follows... or does it?<br />well, time will tell... and i can only pray...<br /><br /><em>The rain rain rain...<br />It's not enough to be the one who holds you<br />It's not enough to be the one your close to<br />I want to be so much more<br />The love that your living for<br />The air you breath<br />I wanna be everything that touches you everything<br /><br />I wanna be the rain that falls on you<br />Washes away the pain<br />I wanna be the sun that shines on you<br />Warms your world each day<br />I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you<br />So you never lose your way<br />I wanna be the wind that kisses your face<br />I wanna be the rain<br />It's not enough for me to be around you<br />I wanna be everything that surrounds you<br />The sun to light up on your skin<br />Each breath that your breathing in<br />Or that you need<br />I wanna be everything that touches you everything<br /><br />I wanna be the rain that falls on you<br />Washes away the painI wanna be the sun that shines on you<br />Warms your world each day<br />I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you<br />So you never lose your way<br />I wanna be the wind that kisses your face<br />I wanna be the rain<br />And even in your sleep when your dreaming<br />I wanna be the only thing you see won't you be there in everything<br /><br />I wanna be the rain that falls on you<br />Washes away the pain<br />I wanna be the sun that shines on you<br />Warms your world each day<br />I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you<br />So you never lose your way<br />I wanna be the wind that kisses your face<br />I wanna be the rain I wanna be the... rain<br />Rain... The Rain</em><br /><br /><br />I DO...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-3183635213008970270?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-84458469629089728932007-02-26T23:30:00.000+08:002007-02-27T00:14:48.822+08:00why is it that when we were kids<br />knowing that it is too far to jump across<br />too high to jump from yet<br />we take the leap<br /><br />but as we age<br />we worry<br />we worry if we are gonna hurt ourselves<br />we worry that if we would succeed<br /><br />but isnt the thrill in the roller coaster ride and not the end of it?<br /><br />we just have to enjoy the ride while on it and not think back and see if it was a good one<br /><br />so many doors are opened to us<br />yet we let them bypass<br />fearing that the door might close behind us<br /><br />but if we don't enter<br />how would we know if we were in the right door after all<br /><br />and if it wasn't<br />at least we have experienced more of life<br />making us wiser and it fuller<br /><br />i choose to live life to the fullest<br />hence i take what we call risks<br />and children call life.<br /><br />maybe we should let the child in us come out and conquer our fears.<br /><br />fear or losing, fear of not attaining, fear of regrets...<br /><br />COME... play with me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-8445846962908972893?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1169956762430823412007-01-28T11:52:00.000+08:002007-01-28T11:59:22.430+08:00a picture of an old woman <br />wrinkly <br />aloof<br />deep<br />and a tear on the cheek<br /><br />fetches different response from different people<br /><br />a 4 year old looked and walked away<br />a two year old cried by the dark wrinkly portrait<br />a 10 year old walked away disturbed<br /><br />so what is the reality<br />that the woman is scary? sad? or not consequential?<br /><br />we all have our own reality<br /><br />and they are all real<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-116995676243082341?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1169956304280754072007-01-28T11:33:00.000+08:002007-01-28T11:51:44.293+08:00walking, sleeping, working <br />all for a living<br /><br />staying still, waking, thinking<br />all for a life<br /><br />living a life for a life worth living<br /><br />what is worthy for me may not be worthy for you<br /><br />why lay your worth in what i do <br />or let what i worth affect what you do<br /><br />let your worth be yours <br />and mine be my<br /><br />for then we all find our self worth <br />which when put together <br />becomes THE awakened worthiness<br /><br />for one is never complete <br />for all is never too if all is seperate<br /><br />awake awake <br />for all our awakening is needed to fulfill THE worth<br /><br />be awaken when you read <br />be awaken when you see<br />be awaken when you hear<br />be awaken when you speak <br /><br />for your speech then contribute to the other's worth and awakening<br /><br />i write in riddles <br />i write in rhymes<br /><br />there is no meaning <br />there is no find<br /><br />but what is taken is in your mind<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-116995630428075407?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1169912090909418772007-01-27T23:29:00.000+08:002007-01-28T08:57:08.783+08:00everything around us is a message<br />an answer<br />but why arent we looking<br />why don't we see<br /><br />the distractions in life <br />wear us out<br /><br />ask a question now <br />and pay attention to the surroundings<br /><br />you will be surprised <br />how simple it is to get the answer!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-116991209090941877?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1169911684752342842007-01-27T23:20:00.000+08:002007-01-27T23:28:04.753+08:00words are manifestation<br />words seed actions<br />why speak words of hurt<br />for they harvest hurt<br /><br />think twice before we speak<br />for we are creators <br />made in the likings of god<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-116991168475234284?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1164470194205691482006-11-25T23:23:00.000+08:002007-01-27T17:23:13.183+08:00desires from within <br />bursting out of me<br />screaming words out loud<br />to express the emotions within<br /><br />today is a fix <br />tomorrow is to begin<br />from within it sparks a fire<br />that burns with my desire<br /><br />was it passion or desire<br />that comes from within<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-116447019420569148?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1157688581888356292006-09-08T12:00:00.000+08:002006-10-01T04:17:31.190+08:00shadows cast upon a brick wall<br />cast upon a tree<br />cast upon a broken front <br /><br />are but shadows<br /><br />they have no emotions <br />no life<br /><br />like shadows, <br />our past and future are but a projection within the time scale<br /><br />it can get distorted on different surfaces<br /><br />but we are the key to the shadows and we have the choice to be where we want to cast it<br /><br />so choose how you want to cast your shadows<br /><br />there is no good or bad <br />just a projection <br /><br />a beatuiful shadow or not lies in the heart of the beholder<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115768858188835629?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1157597515368714772006-09-07T10:43:00.001+08:002006-09-19T03:59:39.403+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0543.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC0543.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />running running running <br />always running<br /><br />nothing wrong with running <br />but we forget to appreciate the breathing <br />that kept us running <br /><br />breathe is what keep us alive<br /><br />running and moving help us to get somewhere<br /><br />there?<br /><br />there is no there?<br /><br />just somewhere.<br /><br />so don't get lost in running<br /><br />stop, breathe<br />appreciate the miracle that is not to be reached <br />but that already exists<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115759751536871477?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1155913505425220352006-08-18T23:04:00.000+08:002006-08-18T23:05:05.440+08:00i live to see to hear to learn <br />to feel the world <br />as it echoes around me the voices from within<br /><br />hence i am but a shadow <br />yet i am but a living shadow <br /><br />choosing <br /><br />choices that are being put before me are often scary <br />but <br />with new found courage through every challenge <br />i push forward.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115591350542522035?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1155563315603652262006-08-14T20:47:00.000+08:002006-08-18T20:34:32.413+08:00life would be so boring without colours<br /><br />but what is a good colour and what is not?<br /><br />there is no good or bad colour like there is no good or bad in the world<br /><br />all is equal <br /><br />all share the same rights to existence<br /><br />for then we can complete the existence of the whole<br /><br />so what is your favourite colour?<br /><br />or should you have a favourite?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115556331560365226?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1155395437610838602006-08-12T22:59:00.000+08:002006-08-12T23:10:37.623+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0765.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC0765.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />future is always in the future<br />if you worry about the future<br />you have missed the present<br /><br />it's easy to forget that we live in the present<br /><br />NOW.<br /><br />in the past..<br />we have achieved<br />we have failed<br />we have recieved<br />we have given<br /><br />in the future we might<br />recieved, give, achieve, fail<br /><br />but if we dun live in the NOW<br />we are as good as dead<br /><br />as good as a thought till we are in the present future<br /><br />but we so often run ahead of ourselves<br />that we never change up with ourselves<br />hence never at the future<br />always in fear of the uncertainty of the future!<br /><br />we forget how we looked when we were twelve <br />without the reminder of a photo<br /><br />live the moment by the moment<br />treasure each and every breath<br /><br />for without just one we discontinue our existence<br />be thoughtful of our <br />every move<br />every word<br />every thought<br /><br />send out your wishes <br />believe <br /><br />let your future come to you<br />let the promise be fulfilled<br />dun sabotage yourself...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115539543761083860?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1155394369833305482006-08-12T22:31:00.000+08:002006-08-12T23:16:33.806+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0740.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC0740.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a>why do i always feel like i could be more interesting<br />why is it that other people's lives always seem more interesting than ours<br /><br />maybe it's because we believe that we dun deserve<br /><br />we dun deserve to be rich, to be healthy, to be happy...<br /><br />how often do we look down on ourselves?<br /><br />i sit here infront of the window looking out<br />at the forest of high rise flats in singapore<br />feeling caged in by the window grills...<br /><br />i am trapped<br />i dun deserve to be free <br />i dun deserve to think <br />i dun deserve to speak...<br /><br />then i looked up at the sky <br /><br />it says to me<br /><br />you deserve as all of us do<br />what i have <br />you have <br />what i can attain<br />you can<br /><br />then i closed my eyes<br />felt my skin grew into the air <br />collided and merged <br /><br />i felt the trees in me <br /><br />i felt i deserve<br /><br />i felt peace<br /><br />i felt chaos<br /><br />i felt whole<br /><br />then there was no fear<br /><br />just ME!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115539436983330548?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1155090439969253552006-08-09T10:16:00.001+08:002006-08-09T10:27:19.980+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0794.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC0794.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0162.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC0162.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />i see i do <br />you see you do<br /><br />why do we imitate those who succeed<br />and find it so hard to be where they are?<br /><br />that is because those who got there<br />went there their own way<br /><br />we try and try <br />but they just dared!<br /><br />we are so afraid to be our own leaders<br />to make up our own mind<br />to make our own decisions<br /><br />hence, we are followers<br /><br />its so much safer to follow<br />and try to be where they were <br />and when we dun get there<br />we say, 'life's not fair!'<br /><br />on the contrary,<br />life is fair!<br /><br />they got there because they dared<br />they got there because they created their dreams<br /><br />therefore be daring<br />be brave<br />be yourself<br /><br />create your own dream/s<br />follow your heart<br />listen to your little voice<br /><br />dun just monkey see monkey do<br />you get me?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115509043996925355?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1155088399413404962006-08-09T09:36:00.001+08:002006-08-09T10:15:00.403+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC1747.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC1747.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />why do we have partners?<br />why do we want a car?<br />why do we want a big house?<br />why do we wear expensive clothes?<br /><br />partners are the tool to the realisation of the self.<br /><br />when we have someone touching us <br />we feel good.<br />but more than feeling good we actually feel ourselves.<br /><br />how often have you stood infront of the mirror and think,<br />'is this really me?'<br /><br />we need to feel our existence<br />we need to feel we are real<br /><br />hence we buy a car<br />excuse being<br />'i like it' but ever asked why you like it?<br /><br />or being i need it from point A to point B<br />get a bus, take the public transport<br />we need our own space<br />my excuse is,<br />'i hate public transport!'<br /><br />but comeon face it oliver, it's an extension of you<br />of your freedom, your security, your ego.<br /><br />and i admit it is.<br /><br />well, but a tleast i ve got a small scooter now!<br />smaller ego?<br />maybe.<br /><br />we need to feel that we exist<br />some have more need to do that than others<br /><br />but realise that no matter how strong your extending fortress is<br />you are only YOU!<br /><br />so build on the inside for a real existence <br />build within yourself the belief<br />the strength<br />the courage<br /><br />face the existence of the self from the inside <br />then all your extension on the outside will become real.<br /><br />'the physical gets old<br />the spiritual just grows...'<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115508839941340496?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1152858666308223722006-07-14T14:22:00.000+08:002006-07-14T14:31:06.316+08:00many months in a strange land has taken me into umpty unfamiliar situations<br />life has taught me to stop thinking<br />but just live it experience it and observe it<br /><br />why did i always ponder about the future? worry about what it may bring?<br /><br />the future will always be the future<br />the past is gone... <br />so why did i always worry about the future and missing the past? <br /><br />if i planted the seed in the present and cared for it's growth with love and passion then the results will come... <br /><br />even if the results weren't what i thought it to be at least i have enjoyed my present life ... which is NOW... NOW... NOW... NOW... NOW...<br /><br />i am so glad to learn to just live life....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-115285866630822372?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1147784105991724102006-05-16T20:41:00.000+08:002006-05-16T20:55:06.026+08:00tick tock tick tock...<br /><br />the time is clicking away<br />but what have i done?<br /><br />does it matter<br />does it count<br /><br />in what matter and what ounce?<br /><br />the clock that makes us measure our worth.<br /><br />so what if i hadn't done enough?<br />so what if i want to do more?<br />if i weren't doing it NOW<br />does it count?<br /><br />so count not what i had done<br />or what i was to do<br />but what i do now<br /><br />for i live in the now beyond time beyond space<br />yet amongst time and space, i create and fulfill.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114778410599172410?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1145678963762648602006-04-22T11:59:00.000+08:002006-04-22T12:09:23.780+08:00days have past since i last wrote<br />i wondered what was there to write<br />and realised there was too much and too little<br /><br />too much has happened<br />yet little is done<br /><br />strike is now everywhere in Nepal<br />shame such a beautiful country with the most beautiful souls<br />is now going through such difficult times<br />a revolution yet i can do so little to help<br /><br />the rallies are peaceful<br /><br />the people are bottled up yet when you walked by anyone<br />the army, the police, the people who are all stressed out and frowning,<br />greet them 'namaste' and the only response you will get from anyone <br />is an "all worries forgotten" deep and a sincere smile and 'namaste'<br /><br />'may the divinity be with you'<br /><br />they have so little<br />yet they have so much to give...<br /><br />i salute the nepalese<br />'Namaste!'<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114567896376264860?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1143961243281014742006-04-02T14:50:00.000+08:002006-04-02T15:00:43.306+08:00so after the mountains... i went para gliding. and felt sick.<br />now this is no good as it affects my decision to go to tibet. i get altitude sicknes!<br /><br />but now i am more aware of how i think.<br /><br />i was in the mountains and thought how i wish i knew the eagles feel when they glide in the sky.... next i went para gliding and felt sick. then i saw the eagles gliding along with us and i thought. great i asked for this!<br /><br />then when i got back i thought good. now that i have finished trekking, what do i do.<br /><br />so i went out to the pub and saw an advert. biking trip to chitwan. (the safari) ha! i was thinking of going there before i went trekking... then i met this dutch gal and her english boy friend who runs the business... and i went biking to amazingly beautiful chitwan!<br /><br />so i thought of last week too ... of how i would love to ride to india... and bingo, they sell bikes too!<br /><br />now that i have all my answers... i have new questions... do i ride to india? do i really wanna go to india? can i manage tibet? great, now that i have asked. the answers are bound to be on their ways... like it or not!<br /><br />you could be pleasantly surprised, or you could be sick in the stomach... remember there is no right and wrong in the universal laws...<br /><br />so be careful what you ask for!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114396124328101474?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1143960602896266712006-04-02T14:24:00.000+08:002006-08-09T10:01:48.743+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0300.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/200/LPIC0300.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />so i embarked on the trekking trip into the himalayan mountains...<br /><br />the sights were breath taking...<br /><br />what was more was seeing people half my size carrying loads double their weight into the mountains.<br /><br />then there are the seventy/eighty years old climbinig and doing the same trek i did.<br /><br />in fact, i stopped at the second highest point of the trek and think why am i doing this? then realized i dun really want to do it. not because the view was not good enough. but on the contrary, the view was too good enough, i felt i need not go on!<br /><br />and every step and every slap of stones i stepped on talked to me. of cause that is a metaphor. but then on the other hand... if it was imagination, then isn't every bit of my life just an imagination realized?<br /><br />however, that does not matter. what matter most was i learned.<br /><br />the view, the nature, the people, the air, the sound of silence, the food, the lack of water and washing... was all new and exciting. not all were welcomed but interestingly experienced.<br /><br />after being in the mountains, waking up at 6am ... bedtime, 8-9 pm... food was basic, cooked on an open fire stove in front of you, bed was just a piece of foam and room was full of cob webs... of course there are the nice, clean , touristy ones... but then you'll miss out on the whole experience. but after all that, i realized that i need only bring 3 pairs of every clothing and i would be sorted for the entire trip!<br /><br />makes me think about how we abuse the earth,<br />and how greedy we are in wanting what we want.<br />massive amount of food, big houses, big cars, big everything!!!<br /><br />i wept when i saw the mountains ripped off and used for agriculture.<br />big mountains with no trees but rice fields and corn fields...<br /><br />then i stay with the people and realized we are all so ignorant.<br /><br />we think we know better. but do we really?<br /><br />i was sad. i was angry. as we drove into the mountains... but when i left, i left comforted. healed. and again i wept.<br /><br />what is right and what is wrong?<br /><br />nothing. we all have choices. we just need to make careful and wise decisions. in the law of the universe, there is no right or wrong. just cause and effect. certain forces attract others. you choose the right and the wrong choices, which we have been concieved and convinced to think and judge.<br /><br />listen to everything thing you hear but let not anything affect you. if you feel angry for a person, acknowledge it. then feel love for the same person, and acknowledge it. then release both feelings and you come to be unaffected. when you are not affected by emotions or your ego, you start seeing the significance of things happening around you and then all your questions are answered.<br /><br />hence, the mountains spoke to me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114396060289626671?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1142261324259714112006-03-13T22:27:00.000+08:002006-08-09T10:05:14.440+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0158.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC0158.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />Well, the usual hassling happened first thing you left the airport.<br />I just splash on a 500 R room for the first night...which is about US$8!!!<br />The room was massaive and i had my personal balcony and roof garden... cos i was on the top floor.<br />Ok, maybe not personal. But everytime I was there no one else was. Hehe...<br />maybe i is ugly or something, innit!<br /><br />A guide tried to con me and rush me into signing a guided trekking trip for US$759 cos i told him i lived in the U.K., and he thought I was rich.<br />So i said, after being with him for almost an hour, to him that i needed to eat i can't think without food!<br />And i fled!<br /><br />So i went to the cafe next to his office and had some food....<br />Looking across the room i saw someone i thought i knew and so said hi.<br />He so happened to be from Singapore and said we went to the Army training together... oh well, he was with another guide who offered me US$550 instead for the trekking....again i fled.<br /><br />Then i suddenly realized a white guy in his late twenties was sitting behind me so i said hi...<br />His name is Fredrick or something like thatand he is french....he has been in Nepal for weeks and so i asked him for all the info and tips he has to offer...<br /><br />We then met again for dinner, and a drink and..... smoked some herbs!!!!<br /><br />He turned out to be a very wise guy... and taught me many things about life... and i thought i was wise... haiz.... well, he was the third french 'gypsy' or traveller i had to meet....But this time i was calm and helped me to handle some of my issues in life...So after a FANTASTIC night and company i left his hotel to mine...it was very quiet and was past 12am and took a trishaw... somehow i realized his was going the the wrong way and kept telling him that , but he insisted it was right! I thought something was fishy and jumped off! He then stopped and asked why and assured me he was to be trusted. So i said to him again the hotel name and took out the name card to show him... so.... i was staying in the guesthouse and not the hotel!!! they are of the same name , except mine is a lot cheaper!!! What a shock!!!<br /><br />Oh well, anyway... of course this is the second day now as i am writing this.... and i have been to the monkey temple and had a most amazing day! The people here are both beautiful and nice... the building very interesting. The food is actually quite good. I thought I would eat less here... but no....<br /><br />Well, it doesn't matter anyway... cos i just booked meself on a trekking trip for 18 days.... in the himalayas... i am sure i'll loose some weight by the end of it! yes! oh, and i paid only US$180!!!<br /><br />Moral of the story is go trekking if you wanna loose weight and never book from the first guide!<br /><br />Write again in 3 weeks!!!!!!<br /><br />Himalayas here i come......................<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114226132425971411?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1141904008721680412006-03-09T19:26:00.000+08:002006-08-09T10:36:22.846+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC1881.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/LPIC1881.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />the sky has changed to a hue of yellow and orange<br />and sinking into a deep deep red<br /><br />to the ground<br />it says<br />to the earth<br />to the earth<br /><br />to the earth i went<br />and found my roots<br />so deep<br />so warm<br />so very real<br /><br />i went through the earth and out again<br />and up and up and up i went<br />till i hit the space above<br /><br />it's time to go<br />it's time to leave<br /><br />i have found my roots and am now ready to leave<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114190400872168041?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1141099713566948982006-02-28T11:51:00.000+08:002006-02-28T12:08:33.580+08:00a little heart beating so fast<br />while a minute ago it was just as normal as any other day.<br />the cat pounced on me<br />and brought me down to the ground.<br />i was this little bird<br />full of pride...<br />proud<br />of my ability to take flight<br />of my ability to escape from those vicious paws and curious minds...<br />but it was my carelessness<br />that took my pride.<br />i struggled through the attack<br />she was like a block of skyscrapper ripping at me in all directions<br />i struggled<br />i failed<br />i gave in to fate...<br />but came a lady screaming and taking me away from my harm<br />but it was too late<br />my little heart has bled<br />but yet not to be seen.<br />for the last night of my very short life<br />i sat in a luxurious cage she had<br />yet he took me to another place<br />i listened as the world goes by<br />for the last time<br />i slept and in the morning<br />i struggled to stay awake till he came with a worm in his hand<br />'good morning' i heard him say<br />but before i could say 'goodbye',<br />i choked on my last breath and went away.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114109971356694898?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1140503831221129422006-02-21T14:06:00.000+08:002006-08-09T10:09:23.466+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/LPIC0790.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/200/LPIC0790.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />have you ever felt dual reality?<br /><br />when you feel so much for something yet you feel just as much against it...<br /><br />it's a very funny feeling.<br /><br />wallentine...<br /><br />i felt so in love with him yet so not in love with him...<br /><br />it's a very funny feeling.<br /><br />i met wallentine a year ago. almost.<br /><br />we met. we shagged. we were in love.<br /><br />yet after our third meeting i whispered to him while standing about fifteen feet away from him.<br /><br />... jag alskar dig.<br /><br />he replied, jag alskar dig.<br /><br />and i turned and walked away...<br /><br />we had not fought.<br /><br />we just knew it was the perfect moment to part as lovers.<br /><br />i was so totally in love with him then yet i was so totally not in love with him.<br /><br />at that precise moment.<br /><br />we felt the presence of the dual reality.<br /><br />we felt complete and at one with the universe.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114050383122112942?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1140501510516160112006-02-21T13:32:00.000+08:002006-12-29T12:21:49.730+08:00the train comes<br />we board<br />we get there...<br />ok, unless you are on the london underground...<br /><br />it's good to know where you want to go<br />and how to get there<br />but we have to board it...<br />it's not good enough if you never actually embark on the journey.<br /><br />it's been months i have planned for my journey to the west<br />to tibet and nepal that is<br />it's now two weeks to it<br />and i am having a little cold sweat<br />...<br /><br />it's so comfortable being in singapore, jobless<br />doing nothing all day...<br /><br />it's good that i have weaved a relationship with my folks<br />and that some of my childhood issues are cleared<br /><br />but all these partying and partying<br />has left me numb to my own greater senses<br /><br />hence, i need to embark on my journey to the west to go deeper into myself...<br /><br />my journey , my journey...<br />isnt it that i look inside myself to find myself?<br />then why am i going away to look inside myself?<br /><br />i know... there are just too many distractions here<br /><br />the garang guni man and his horn,<br />the neighbours radio,<br />the cars,<br />the doors shutting,<br />the constant noise pollution in singapore is so distracting<br /><br />then there is the drinking,<br />the unneccessarily luxurious tempting food,<br />the gorgeous looking people!!!!!<br /><br />i cannot wait to sit on the mountain and breathe the fresh air<br />and be with myself...<br />once i know myself... i will always be able to find me.<br /><br />hence, i shall embark on the journey physically in this reality as i have already done so in my others... ok, ok, no sweat, no sweat!<br /><br />as for now the garang guni man has still got my attention! arghhhhhh......<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114050151051616011?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1140121676549444752006-02-17T04:16:00.000+08:002006-02-17T04:27:56.560+08:00it has been a very rewarding yet a very upsetting day for me...<br />how could it be right?<br />what irony... yet irony exists for a good reason i have just realized today...<br />it makes you see both sides of the story and thus making it full and beautiful.<br /><br />i have learned about confidence.<br />confidence is strength gained through practice...says he.<br />yet faith is confidence before practice...<br />it's the ultimate knowing.<br /><br />i realized that whatever strength or knowledge you know or prossess<br />it is meaningless if others are not there to appreciate.<br />there is only so much you can do for yourself<br />and much more needs approval from others as of universe.<br /><br />like a universe has no reason for existence<br />if it does not stand the test of human destruction<br />for a greater understanding of it powers<br /><br />it is thus not an arrogance but a test of faith.<br /><br />yet knowing that you have no control of all yet you createall...<br />that is the beauty of creation<br />that is the beauty of faith<br />that is beautiful<br />that is irony<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-114012167654944475?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1139855514530720252006-02-14T01:33:00.000+08:002006-02-20T11:24:30.233+08:00ah...so today i walked into a tibetan temple in my estate....<br /><br />i was standing by the notice board reading the notices and read that whoever wants to speak to the monks needs to booked an appointment and the appointment lasts 10 mins unless the monks should allow us to stay longer...<br /><br />oh man, booking in advance! me lazy bones would never get half way to the office!!!<br /><br />but i thought to myself... it would be nice to speak to one though... one then appeared as soon as i turned around.<br /><br />erm, hi.... (right ollie. look here's your chance! stop him! )<br />oh, can i go into the temple? (oh ollie, you dumb arse! it's open to the public!!!)<br />yes, he said... but what would you like to do?<br />erm,.... to meditate? (yes, ollie try to sound spiritual )<br />yes, but do sit in the back...<br />(oh no, must be my dreads... noticed i have sent many people staring at me!) (say something ollie! he's moving away!!!)<br />Oh, in the back? (i felt like such an idiot!)<br />yes, he moved back towards a bench and offered me to sit beside him... (i must have look desperate to talk to him!)<br />GREAT! NO APPOINTMENT NEEDED!<br /><br />so we spoke...<br />about life...<br />about tibet...<br />about buddhism... (ok, he was talking...for a change!)<br /><br />then i told him about my discoveries this last year...<br />he then past me a blue banner like thing and asked me what i saw... i felt a gold light and saw something... he then confirmed it and said it is of a golden nature and has a golden light... and confirmed the other. but as i was holding it, i felt i was flying... woohoo!<br /><br />i asked him very silly questions like why are monks ... monks?<br />why this? why that?<br /><br />i felt like a kid.<br />but a grown kid.<br /><br />there's no answers to questions but the answers are in the speeches...<br />how subtle yet how not!<br /><br />i have learnt<br />i felt a lot more relieved for some things seem clearer now.<br /><br />he puts me back on the path i have been tip toeing on... yet almost straying...<br /><br />drinking, smoking, partying have been so much a part of my life of late... it's been GREAT fun! yet damaging to my soul... (ok, that doesnt mean i aint partying no more!) But maybe less for the time being...<br /><br />anyway, after about an hour (Yes ONE hour!!!) (oh, and without an appointment!!!) it was time for him to have his dinner...<br /><br />and he said you may meditate in there if you want but do sit in the back...<br /><br />its my hair right? scaring people? (or is it because i ve been hit by an ugly stick while i was borned?)<br /><br />he chuckled!!!<br /><br />oh ollie... maybe you should start blending in... indeed i blended in with the colourful wall paper in the back!!!!<br /><br />Really!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113985551453072025?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1139635842859600262006-02-11T13:13:00.000+08:002006-02-11T13:30:42.890+08:00was feeling really uneasy all day yesterday...<br />was looking for events to happen<br />went to bed at 9 pm and slept till 12 am ... still nothing happened except some amazing dreams...<br />funny, to me my dreams are always so real sometimes i feel that my dreams are my reality and these waking moments are in fact my dreams...<br /><br />but how can i support that when many times my dreams do not relate to each other...<br /><br />i unify.<br /><br />i unify my dreams and my waking moments.<br />my dreams are messages from my subconcious mind while i am resting my concious. Bringing out the messages i would have usually missed out on.<br />and my concious mind puts these messages into actions or remedy the next waking day.<br /><br />unify.<br /><br />thus, i unify my concious and my subconcious mind for my unified reality. making it whole. making it full.<br /><br />i dreamt in my dream that i was awake yet i know i was dreaming but i wasn't sure. then i looked out of my window in my dream to see two men shouting on the streets ... ' what do i do? i don't know what is real and what is not?' hence, i wake thinking. this is indeed a problem.<br /><br />but then the next day, i woke up and read a text recieved during the night. my friend told me that he has thought of the name for our healing centre in london. 'Unify'!!!<br /><br />was it not then my subconcious mind's questioning answered in my concious world?<br /><br />is that not a unification indeed.<br /><br />i wish all religions, cultures, people be unified someday or perhaps that is a bit far fetched and idealistic.<br /><br />may i then wish that every one's heart be unify oneday...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113963584285960026?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1139084368114492732006-02-05T04:11:00.000+08:002006-02-05T04:19:28.126+08:00moving and moving...<br />i seem to be moving quickily now.<br />yet i have no where to go<br />and i am going no where.<br /><br />not moving and staying in singapore<br />yet i feel like i have be strolling along quite quickily in lfe.<br /><br />i have met many interesting people whom have encouraged me and confirmed me that i am on the right track.<br /><br />what track?<br /><br />to be honest, i don't really know... but i know the destination.<br /><br />Or... do i?<br /><br />thank you all for helping me build my dream.<br /><br />i hope i have helped you in yours!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113908436811449273?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1138832967260255632006-02-02T05:54:00.000+08:002006-02-02T06:29:27.283+08:00last march...<br />after i read about channeling, i watched a movie where this woman could see into someone lifes while holding their hands.<br />i saw and i thought to myself. thats just what i could do in future.<br />three days ago, i met him.<br />i placed my hand on his back and saw him climbing a tree as a child<br />and a tree house he once had.<br />and later i saw more visions...<br />though i didnt trust myself enough to tell him all that i saw fearing he would mock me<br />i had confirmed myself that i was not astray when he told me the incidents i mentioned.<br />its a gift that had always existed but never trusted.<br />now that i have more faith in myself.<br />i have more faith in my gifts.<br />thank you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113883296726025563?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1138378755226872242006-01-27T23:59:00.000+08:002006-01-28T00:25:29.463+08:00i was shopping in chinatown today.<br />had a german saugage...<br />then wanted more..<br />so got another and another and another.<br />so had FOUR in the end!!!<br />what a pig! yes,<br />they were pork sausgaes too!<br />why do i not know when to stop.<br />it was sooooooo irresistable.<br />am i weak minded or am i just indulging in a quick fix?<br />it did leave me satisfied for a while though...<br />but my stomach was begging me to stop.<br />i did it... reluctantly.<br />at times like this, i wish i was a bottomless pit...<br />so i could eat ALLLLLLL the sausages in the world!!!<br />hehehehe...<br /><br />then there will be no pigs left in the world...<br /><br />why am i sooo greedy.<br />i have left myself with no more such pleasure<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113837875522687224?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1138199781181403062006-01-25T22:23:00.000+08:002006-01-27T02:52:23.183+08:00down with a cold... not fun.<br /><br />went out all day. fun.<br /><br />now up till late. fun.<br /><br />had four meals today. not fun. no, was fun.<br /><br />getting fat!!! not fun.<br /><br />spoke to a friend on msn today. well , he was my senior at school... well, about 10 - 11 years ago... he now lives in the states. but he was younger than me. no... i am not stupid. just that i went to national service before the course... anyway, he told me he thought i was hot! yoohoo. i used to fancy him, but because he was such a hot stuff at school and all. i didnt say anything. i even sent him home once when he was real drunk and i slept on his floor!!!<br /><br />why? why didnt i go for it?<br /><br />but if i did. would it be a happy ending?<br /><br />...no, we are different. very different.<br /><br />its funny how you know stuff.<br /><br />well, at least friends dun break up.<br /><br />and because we dun see each other's ugly side. we are forever interesting and nice in each other's eyes...<br /><br />sneeze... sneeze... alrighty, enough crap for today!<br /><br />gotta go to bed now...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113819978118140306?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1138133723523756032006-01-25T04:03:00.000+08:002006-01-25T04:15:23.536+08:00when i fly<br />i see not one in view<br />when i dive<br />i lose myself in view<br /><br />but when i stop to look<br />i see all things in view<br /><br />they soar, they dive,<br />they wonder why<br />yet only i can understand<br /><br />thus i just stop to view<br />and through viewing i then learn<br /><br />it's not how you move<br />it's not what you see<br />it's how you learn to<br />move when you are still<br /><br />and how you soar<br />and how you dive<br />and how to understand<br />your view.<br /><br />so now i sit to learn<br />to view<br />to understand the lessons<br />in my view<br /><br />i soar, i dive, i wonder why<br />yet i am still sitting still<br /><br />it'llcome one day<br />when i shall understand<br />when i return<br />to fly<br /><br />i shall fly<br />with wings opened wide<br />yet understand<br />why<br />i shall soar<br />why<br />i shall dive<br />why<br />why<br />why<br />have i come to understand all things in view.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113813372352375603?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1138132865342634892006-01-25T03:52:00.000+08:002006-01-25T04:01:05.343+08:00how should i know?<br /><br />i was born and therefore i live.<br /><br />i live and therefore i die.<br /><br />a journey started alone, and to end alone.<br /><br />travelling with many to realise that we are after all...<br /><br />one.<br /><br />why search so hard?<br /><br />why look so far?<br /><br />why not stop to see and realise we are not so far?<br /><br />always searching, always looking, but shame, what a shame that we are seldom seeing.<br /><br />reasons to live<br /><br />reasons we give<br /><br />reasons are all we ever give<br /><br />there is no reason<br /><br />there need no giving<br /><br />but there is all for us to live.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113813286534263489?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1138131165752963062006-01-25T02:17:00.000+08:002006-01-25T03:32:45.766+08:00well, i must get used to writing here...<br /><br />so... my spaced journey through space was through... now, i am trying to live my physical existence from the lessons i have learned and am still learning.<br /><br />i am a very confusingly sorted sort of lad... i guess. I know things but then again I wish I knew more... but i am very happy knowing what i know now... for maybe now is the time for only so much to be told.<br /><br />i am looking forward to my trip to tibet and nepal in march. but then hey i might be locked up or fined lotsa money and be too broke to go as i was not aware that i had to report to cmpb after returning to Singapore in dec 05.<br /><br />oh well, i have been away about 7 years after all with valid exit permit!!! wish me luck! and i hope you like me enough to wish me good ones!!!<br /><br />so i am once again jobless... and not proud of it. but i am funny enough really busy! friends are constantly asking me out for meals. and i must thank my friends who feed me while i spend my time learning, healing and reading for people...<br /><br />well, hopefully one day... we will meet up for a chat... YOU! and who knows what will happen...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113813116575296306?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1137737800139361692006-01-20T14:07:00.000+08:002006-01-27T02:56:02.820+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/1600/Lake%20karlskorna%20inverted.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5561/2141/320/Lake%20karlskorna%20inverted.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />Space is the majority of any existence yet people pursue the minority, physical evidence. We priced our belief and morals on the majority. Yet we priced our physical goods on the minority and the rarity.<br /><br />We are taught to prove and believe what we see… but seeing is often described as a vision. Is not faith also a vision? To physically see is to reflect another existence yet faith is the reflection of the existence before its physical form.<br /><br />To see with the eyes and to see with the heart… <br /><br />What makes a blind man blind when he fails to see with the eyes, yet a man is not blind when he fails to see with the heart? Just because something is tangible does not mean it exists, and what you do not see fails to exist. David Copperfield has ‘made’ many things disappeared. Are they then real? Oh, they are illusions. There is no demanded proof but it is an illusion. Yet a man who tries to build his dream are often said to be crazy till his vision materialized. Then he becomes a genius.<br /><br />Open your heart, open your mind, reach out to others and reach within yourself.<br /><br />The reality is only a reflection of the existence already passed. Time is only an essence to hold the existence.<br /><br />Let the space speak to you and your faith bring it through.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113773780013936169?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21195075.post-1137669525798804622006-01-19T17:41:00.000+08:002007-06-14T23:58:57.649+08:00space. there is no limit in space. the vastness of space is how you see it and how much you allow it to come to you... no words can describe my journey yet i am still attempting to write it here... maybe however much i write may reach out to you, even the slightest is more than enough....<br /><br />...i sat holding her hands with our eyes closed. whats that i asked? a bridge she said... and told me to cross it... i did and my life has changed ever since...<br /><br />how did she know what i saw? how did we see the same thing in our heads?<br /><br />... i opened my eyes and was healing him... no lets try this i told her.... how did i know how to heal him?...<br /><br />ah, it all makes sense... without making sense.<br /><br />the universe has presented itself to me and yet i had no idea that it was talking to us. it operates through tiny little frequencies and vibrations that we are able to feel only if we relax and let it come to us... and it did. i saw the beginnings of time. the making of the universe. the making of us. and how we connect to each other without even knowing... strange.<br /><br />i was a born again. the christian would say. the buddhist, enlightened. but just by a touch, a mere stroke across the face... of the surface, that i was...<br /><br />it is by faith that i have been opened to this new concept that has always existed. a faith that i tried testing yet everythime i tested, i failed. but everytimei believed, i succeeded.<br /><br />the logic of space is limitless and non bias. it has no real reason for existence yet every reason to exist. there is no ego for nothing is in existence even while existing. there was just love and faith that binds everything together.<br /><br />now back to my journey... i was healing. then i saw through my healing... the person's life. thus, i developed visions... later, saw spirit and started feeling things.... strange was never a word for me now. conincidence also was abondoned.<br /><br />now there is cause and effect.<br /><br />and there is faith and hope in everything.<br /><br />don't be too literal my friends... dont even try to read between the lines. just be yourself. your REAL self. your TRUE self. and the universe will reach into you most naturally... it may just be a split second but once you have been there... your bridge to the subconcious is building up slowly. you have a choice to continue building it or let others make you forsake it or worse tear it now and mock it...<br /><br />there is nothing to lose either way. it's just a space for you to explore.... a very informative space.<br /><br />did i tempt you or did i enlighten you?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/21195075-113766952579880462?l=coatyl.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>coatyl - sun godhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851920456371039031noreply@blogger.com0