my journey to the west...

the train comes
we board
we get there...
ok, unless you are on the london underground...

it's good to know where you want to go
and how to get there
but we have to board it...
it's not good enough if you never actually embark on the journey.

it's been months i have planned for my journey to the west
to tibet and nepal that is
it's now two weeks to it
and i am having a little cold sweat
...

it's so comfortable being in singapore, jobless
doing nothing all day...

it's good that i have weaved a relationship with my folks
and that some of my childhood issues are cleared

but all these partying and partying
has left me numb to my own greater senses

hence, i need to embark on my journey to the west to go deeper into myself...

my journey , my journey...
isnt it that i look inside myself to find myself?
then why am i going away to look inside myself?

i know... there are just too many distractions here

the garang guni man and his horn,
the neighbours radio,
the cars,
the doors shutting,
the constant noise pollution in singapore is so distracting

then there is the drinking,
the unneccessarily luxurious tempting food,
the gorgeous looking people!!!!!

i cannot wait to sit on the mountain and breathe the fresh air
and be with myself...
once i know myself... i will always be able to find me.

hence, i shall embark on the journey physically in this reality as i have already done so in my others... ok, ok, no sweat, no sweat!

as for now the garang guni man has still got my attention! arghhhhhh......